|Dec. 18th, 2006 01:15 pm venting9 comments - Leave a comment |
|Date:||December 21st, 2006 10:07 am (UTC)|| |
Re: i hate you...
well. i was upset at you at that moment. i did seem crazy. but you don't communicate. you hold shit in like this stuff, until it is too late & there is little to be done about it.
well, yes I did say that about jesse. but people's minds can change, can't they? & I was never really good at the poly-thing, back then. I liked you too much for that.
I don't know anything, I guess. I was this awful person & I wasn't meaning to be. I am not desperate, pathetic... & I am not lying now. I have lied in the past, yes. I know that.
when is giving up on someone you care about okay?
what if someone really does want to change? what if someone has lost everything to learn everything?
because you do care.
I have done things wrong. but this is a learning experience. for me, at least.
thank you for being happy that I stepped on the mouthpiece.
that's just super.
I mean, you think I don't know what I've done?
or can you pontificate more on the matter?
oh wait, don't bother.
if you hate me so much, stop writing back.
stop writing about me,
stop wondering why you care.
care, or don't.
I did things wrong, I'm no angel.
snow falls on cedars quietlee, & you're not hearing me.